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Ngithanda inkomishi yetiye efudumele kangangokuthi ngiphupha inkomishi engasoze yaphela futhi ihlala ifudumele. Uma kungokomfelokazi ku 1. Amakhosi 17 asebenza, kungani kungenzeki kimi na? Joyina eceleni.
Kukhona okupholisayo ngenkomishi egcwele - inkomishi engenalutho ihlale ingenza ngidabuke kancane. Ngifunde iculo “ngesikhathi samahhala sabesifazane” eNewfoundland, eCanada elithi “Gcwalisa Indebe Yami, Nkosi”. Sekuyiminyaka embalwa kusukela ngesikhathi sami sokuphumula, kodwa amagama nezwi lale ngoma kusaseduze nenhliziyo yami. Kungumthandazo kuNkulunkulu ukuba acime umphefumulo wami owomile, angigcwalise futhi angivuselele njengesitsha sakhe.
Sivame ukuthi singasebenza ngempumelelo kuphela uma sinethangi eligcwele. Ngikholwa ukuthi nakuba lokhu kuyiqiniso ikakhulukazi kubantu abangenalwazi, akekho kithi ongafinyelela ubuningi ngomzamo omncane. Indlela engcono kakhulu yokuhlala unogqozi iwukuba nobuhlobo obuphilayo nobukhulayo noNkulunkulu. Kwesinye isikhathi inkomishi yami ayinalutho. Lapho ngizizwa ngingelutho ngokomoya, ngokwenyama, nangokomzwelo, kuba nzima ukuba ngivuselele amandla. Angingedwa kulokhu. Nginesiqiniseko sokuthi ungaqinisekisa ukuthi izisebenzi zesikhathi esigcwele nezokuzithandela emiphakathini, ikakhulukazi ngemva kwemishado, kufanele njalo zithathe isikhathi esanele sokushajwa kabusha amabhethri azo. Ngemva kwezingqungquthela neminye imicimbi emikhulu, ngihlale ngidinga ikhefu elincane.
Ngakho sifaka kanjani uphethiloli? Ngaphandle kokuphumula kwakusihlwa kusofa, indlela engcono kakhulu yokushajwa kabusha amabhethri akho iwukuba uchithe isikhathi noNkulunkulu: Ukufunda iBhayibheli, ukuzindla, ukuba wedwa, ukuhamba, futhi ikakhulukazi umthandazo. Kulula kakhulu ukuba ukuphila okumatasa kuthathe indawo yalezi zingxenye ezibalulekile, kodwa sonke siyakwazi ukubaluleka kokuhlakulela nokujabulela ubuhlobo bethu noNkulunkulu. Ukunakekela nokuthokoza - lezi izincazelo zami "zokuba seduze noNkulunkulu". Sekukaningi ngizifaka ngaphansi kwengcindezi kule punk. Ngangingazi ukuthi ngingaba kanjani nobuhlobo obunjalo noNkulunkulu nokuthi kufanele bubukeke kanjani ngempela. Bengikhathazekile ngokuba sebudlelwaneni nomuntu ongamboni - bengingenakho isipiliyoni salokho. Phakathi nesikhathi sokuphumula esithulile, ngathola iqiniso elingaphelelwa yisikhathi elake lenziwa kusukela ekuqaleni kweBandla futhi engangingayazi ngokugcwele incazelo yalo kwaze kwaba yileso sikhathi. Leli qiniso liwukuthi umthandazo uyisipho esivela kuNkulunkulu kithi sokuthola, ukwambula, ukuvuselela nokuhlanganyela naye ubuhlobo uJesu ahlala enabo noYise. Ngokuphazima kweso kwakhanya ukukhanya kimi. Ngangifuna okuthile okuphawulekayo, okunothando futhi okujabulisa ngempela kunomthandazo wokuhlakulela ubuhlobo bami noNkulunkulu.
Yiqiniso, ngase ngikwazi kakade ukubaluleka komthandazo - futhi ngangikwenza ngempela. Kodwa ingabe ngezinye izikhathi asiwuthathi kalula umthandazo? Kulula kakhulu ukubona umthandazo njengesikhathi esinikeza uNkulunkulu uhlu lwethu lwezifiso kunesikhathi lapho sihlakulela ubuhlobo bethu noNkulunkulu futhi sijabulele ukuba khona Kwakhe. Asifaki uphethiloli ukuze silungele izinkonzo zesonto futhi, kodwa ukuze uNkulunkulu noMoya oNgcwele bathathe indawo kithi.
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